Lazy Day

Today, my blockmate noticed something, "What happened to you? You've become so lazy!"

"I have lots to do. And I know if I started to do everything so well (just like Fil14), I would end up so tired.", I responded.

"Yeah. We were so good during Fil14."

I know. haha

Anyhoo, yes, I've been really lazy especially today. Must be the weather.

I arrived in school by 6:50am for my 7.30am class. By 7:10am, the Professor texts the beadle that she'll give a free cut. Great! My next class is 4:30pm. Thanks. :| My blockmates and I decided to just eat at McDo til 11am.

But no, I should have been in Eastwood for my job interview for IBM by 10am. I was just too lazy to go. haha. I'm just hoping a better company will call me up again.

By 11am, I went back to school to start my part of the PPT presentation for our IPE report due by 3pm. Cramming much. We did "good", according to the proof. Yipee. That's 25% of our final mark.

By 4pm, started reading for Philo coz we'd have a quiz. Failed the quiz.

Argh. I'm so lazy, yet, I am blogging. haha

Obvious

It's so obvious. And it's killing me.
Self, know your limits.

"I have to go. I can't chase after my dreams anymore.", I read in Playing for Pizza. After a few seconds, "good things come to those who wait", David Archuleta told me. I am torn. I dunno if still should pursue my dream or wait and wait and wait. I know this dream is so difficult to achieve, almost impossible.

Today, I think, the answer was clear (or was i just over interpreting stuff again?)
I think it's time to stop, but I really don't want to.

Econometrics

Econometrics is the best subject in the entire world. Grabe. For a HW (a mere HW!), I:
* spent 8 hours of my not-so-productive life just to do it.
* used 3 computer programs to do the analysis properly.
* was sooooooo sabaw yesterday.
* am so irritated with the "leech."
* spent 44 pesos for printing.
* was bad vibes the whole day.
* am really drained mentally.
* wanted to give up and just cry.
* realized how important my block is to my Eco life.
* had the a good 8 hours of FUN with my block. (Though, Part II of the HW might be a different case. haha I'm not sure if I can handle 8 hours more. hahaha)

AFTER ALL that, I still wasn't able to get the correct answer. Wow. I love Econometrics.

Pleasure Reading

I don't like reading novels and all those stuff. But lately, out of boredom and stuff to do, I've been itching to read. Weird much. I'm not really fond of reading.

Last week, i was discussing with a group of friends our favorite novels. I tried to borrow all of their favorite novels. I thought they didn't take me seriously. haha. Today, one of them brought a book. It's entitled "Playing for Pizza." I started reading it already. Good one. It's interesting, as of now.

I hope to enjoy reading this one. If this turns out to be really good, I might gain interest in reading novels and, finally, be cultured. hahaha

Control

I really, really, really want to do something. But that something is bad. The urge to do it is killing me. I won't do it. I promise myself. I need to control myself. If I do it, it will ruin lives. hahaha


God, help me. *Nothing serious. hahaha

Jealous

My blockmates are getting "jealous." They are jokingly questioning my "loyalty" to them. I'm spending too less time with them, according to them. Wushoooo.

This is what happened yesterday.

My blockmate texted me, "Magcucut ka ba ng Philo? Hee Hee"

"NO! (though I want to.)", i replied.

"CUT NA!"

"I can't. 5th cut ko na (of 6 max). Don't tempt me. Pls.."

"RockBand us!"

"I can't talaga."

"Che ka! Kung blockmates hindi pwede pero kung iba go-go ka. Che!"

This was a joke but it had substance/ meaning. Today, I talked to some of my blockmates, including her, about this. They all said that I was spending less time with them and too much with others. Wushooo. Don't worry blockmates, I still love you.

Happy

I won the elections. I'm the next president of AEA. I'm excited, yes. BUT I am just not as happy as I should be. Everyone was cheering when the voting of the ballots was done. Yipee. But, somehow, it still has yet to sink into me. I dunno why. This is what I wanted. Or is it? I just wanted to be with the people I love in AEA so I decided to run for president. I know it sounds so shallow; contrived even. I was never after the position; I was after the company and the experience.

I should be happy. Next year's gonna be interesting and exciting.

I feel so ungrateful, though, I am. Maybe, I'm just tired.