Block Love

I just came home from Tagaytay. I was with my blockmates. We had soooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun!!! haha Super duper fun. hahaha

I'm off to Caliraya tomorrow for the COA Plevsem. I really am not excited; i am pretty aprehensive, quite honestly. AND, i have yet to start with all the preparations for tomorrow. I can do this.

I love you Block F!!!!! hahahaha

Stress

School's over. Yipee. But why the heck am I so stressed still? Argh.


I'm doing mostly org/block/me stuff and it is stressful! hahaha

I'll be off to Tagaytay tomorrow for our Block Outing. I'm so excited for this. I hope nothing bad happens. We'll be back in Manila Tuesday night. Then, on Wednesday, I'll be off to Caliraya for the COA Formsem. I'm kinda not excited about this because I am not too familiar with the other org presidents. I just hope I enjoy this one. haha. Though, I have yet to prepare for the Formsem. Fudges. haha

Deserve

There are things in life that we get but we do not, honestly, deserve. I welcome such things because they make life a little better and easier. Today, I had my philo orals. I started to study only yesterday. 2 hours of lecture from my blockmates and 2 hours of "reviewing" my notes. That's the only time I devoted for my orals. I knew I would flunk it anyway.

Anyhoo, I was panicking terribly before the orals. I was preparing myself to tell my professor that I won't do the exam and to just give me an F. An F in the orals would mean a C+ for my final mark. I was so ready to tell him that.

BUT NO, I got the joker (for the 2nd time!!!!). It meant i could choose whatever thesis statement that I wanted to explain. Ofcourse, I chose the statement about Marx coz I've been studying Marxist Eco the whole semester. I did fine in my orals. Thank God.

Metrics Today; Philo Tomorrow

I had my Metrics finals today and it was horrible. After that test, I need a 71 to maintain my C+; fat chance. I'm so over it. I'm not in a very bad state anyway. I am just hoping that not a lot of people will take Metrics again next sem. It's highly likely that a lot of my blockmates will. God bless us.

I am so nervous about my philo orals. OMG. As in. Shit. I am so nervous. I know I will do so bad tomorrow. I don't know anything. I will ust make myself look stupid tomorrow in front of Jesus Christ (Pasco.) Shit. Pray for me.

Dev't Eco Love

I just realized it now: my Dev't Eco grade will pull my grades down in a bongga way. haha

I got my prefinal mark today; a C+ thanks to my oh-so-amazing 2nd LT. Before the 2nd LT, i was a solid B+ with hope of an A. But no, after that 2nd LT, fat chance.

I started out so well and, yet, ended so waley. haha

I am hoping for magic to happen.

Tony Blair

I'm still at awe that I got the opportunity to listen to Tony Blair's talk a while ago. The registration started at 8am; we were all there by 8am. The actual talk started 10am. We were sooooooooo bored for 2 hours doing such crazy things. haha

It ended by 11.10am. Grabe. Tony Blair was brillant, witty, and charismatic.

Above all, today, after listening to his talk and having understood it perfectly thanks to my Economics classes, I felt proud and priviledged to be an Eco Major. That's a first. haha

Scared

It's my Philo orals on Thursday and I am soooooo scared for my life already. I got my Philo LT2 the other day and I got a 3.5; my 1st was also a 3.5. For my quizzes, I got 3 4's and a 0 but the lowes is cancellable so I'll get an A for the quiz component. I'm basically at the same situation that I was in last sem. I need an A in my orals to get an A in my final mark and I need a C+ to maintain my B+.

Fat chance. Shet. I will do terrible in my orals, i just know it. I have been cutting class, not listening to Pasco and not taking down notes. I need a miracle.

Horoscope

We have a Dev't Economics LT tomorrow. The only LT I have the for this week, the week before finals. Whattalife. haha I found out from Domdom today that Economics has the lowest number of units in the entire Ateneo. That explains why I am not stressing this week. haha

Anyhoo, I've been reading a lot for the test tomorrow. I started reading yesterday. I've read around half of the readings already. 100 more sheets to go! The test would mostly be about the financial crisis, the housing bubble, mortages, subprimes, etc. haha A while ago, i was reading in the library and decided to have a "break." I read the newspaper.

My horoscope: Avoid important financial discussions. Don't ask for a loan or a mortage today.

If i followed my horoscope, I'd be so dead tomorrow. haha

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N.B. I passed the Econometrics LT 2 that I thought I would fail terribly. I really was worried that I'd get a 20 something. I passed. Yay!

Scared of Philo

Argh. It's 11.52pm now. I only have around 12 hours to make my Philo paper. I am not at page 1. Fart. haha

I chose not to do it the past 2 days. Now, I must suffer. haha I still don't know what to write about. Yipee.

Go BRAIN! You can do it.

Philo-ing

I need to make a philosophical review of "Bicycle Thief" for class. It's a really old Italian movie. The paper's worth 20% of my final grade, i think. The problem is I just don't have the will power to make it. And I don't know what to write about. I haven't been listening in class nor reading the readings. Fart. haha (This will be the exact problem I'll face next week for Philo orals!!)

I hope I can do it by tonight. It's due 12nn tomorrow. I can't believe I am finding it hard difficult to write this paper. :|

QPI Woes

I don't know why I suddenly decided to compute my QPI. Now, I'm bothered. haha

This semester has been relatively light (15 units) and easy. The only problem area would be my Eco classes because I'm hell good in Eco. hahaha

My realistic QPI would be around a 3.0. My optimistic QPI would be a 3.3. And my God-gave-me-a-miracle QPI would be a 3.4.

It all depends of my Econometrics. If the 2nd LT didn't happen, the 3.3 would have been still realistic. Fart. I hope I do well.

Waiting

My blockmates and I decided not to go to Dev't Eco class today to protest against our professor because she hasn't returned the test we took last January 15, 2 months ago. The weird thing is that she brought it like 3 weeks ago but never gave it back. Then, promised last Tuesday that she'd give it back last Thursday and would give us plus 10 points if she didn't. She didn't. And she didn't give us the bonus points. Last Thursday, she told us that she'd leave it at the Eco Department on Saturday. She never did. She emailed us that she had an "emergency meeting" to go to and would just post our grades online. She never did.

Anyhoo, today, she gave it back, but I wasn't there to get my paper so I have to wait 4 more days to see my score. Fart. Worse, according to my classmates from that class, the professor told the class that "Kris" got the "highest" score. They all assumed it was me, but there are two Kris's in that class!! And I don't want to be disappointed if I weren't the right Kris she was pertaining too so I'm trying my best not to expect. haha

The excitement is killing me. 4 more days. haha

Nerd Mode

This is my first nerd mode day in like 2 months. And I am not accustomed to it.

As soon as I arrived in school, I went directly to Matteo to check up on my blockmates. I dropped my bag and I felt the urge to go to the library when I found out some of them were there. So, I ditched my blockmates in Matteo and went to the library to do Dev't Eco. I read 4 newspapers; front page to the last. I needed to look for an article to report on in class. I started feeling woozy afterwards.

Then, I went to the Comp Lab to print the Logit and Linear Probability powerpoints for Metrics class. Useless. I just wasted 40php because it wasn't used in class. Anyhoo, Metrics class was so, uhm, "dettached." I couldn't concentrate because it was so difficult to breathe due to the heat!

After class, quick lunch with my blockmates then back to the Comp Lab to type my report for tomorrow. By 3:30pm, I had a major headache. My brain is throbbing hard.

When I got home, I slept immediately. My brain was not able to cope with the "academic" stuff that I did today. I don't like nerd mode.

Opening Up

Lately, a lot of people have been opening up to me about their personal lives. My friends have been sharing with me stuff that they feel they can't share with their other friends. And I've been opening up to my friends also.

It's pretty weird because, i think, people think that i am very chismoso and yet a lot of people share with me their most intimate selves. And I really appreciate the trust people give me. Trust me, I never share to other people things that my friends specifically told me not to tell.

I guess I've earned people's trust. And those around me have earned my trust as well. I am just so thankful to be blessed with good people around me.

Bore Me (Yawn)

Grabe.
I do not know how we ended up this way.
It wasn't awkward. We are perfectly at ease with each other.
We used to have so much fun together.

I've been feeling this the whole semester.
I hope we get back to how things used to be.

Refreshing

A friend has been in "trouble" for the past few weeks. He has been unusually sad. I found out why today. I don't want to elaborate. He never really intended to share those with me. I was just at right place at the right time.

His honesty, maturity, and respect was truly refreshing. I look up to him for these.

Jesus and Gravity

I've got
Somethin' lifting me up
Somethin' holding me down
Somethin' to give me wings
Somethin' to keep my feet on the ground
I've got all I need
Jesus and gravity

Firo-B Test Results

We got our Firo-B test results during class a while ago. This test deals with how we interact with other people. I was so amazed by the results. We took it last July, i think. There was a series of situations and we were asked to choose what we were gonna do.

0-1 Very Low
2-3 Low
4-5 Average
6-7 High
8-9 Very High

Here's the summary my results:
n.b. Interpretation of guidance office score my interpretation

Inclusion
1. I make efforts to include other people in my activities and to get them to include me in their. I try to belong, to join social groups, to be with people as much as possible. 6
- Yes, I cannot stand being alone. Hahahaha. YES! I love being with people!!!
2. I want other people to include me in their activities and to invite me to belong, even if I do not make an effort to be included. 7
-SO invite me to your whatever's (lunch/ tambay/ dinner) haha
-I really appreciate it when people do invite me!

Control
3. I try to exert control and influence over things. I can take charge of things and tell other people what to do. 9
- "Leadership skills" daw
- Control freak much. Hahaha.
4. I want others to control and influence me. 7
-I listen to other people's opinions. Naks. haha

Affection
5. I make efforts to become close to people.
I express friendly and affectionate feelings and try to be personal and intimate. 7
-I love to make people feel that i love them.
- If you're loved by me, you would know.
6. I want others to express friendly and affectionate feelings toward me. 2
-Basta. I get awkward.

AMAZING. This test really got me.

Those numbers are really high compared to my classmates. Most of them got 2's and 3's.

This test basically slapped me with the reality of who I am now. Wow.