Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Life Changing

I never expected to meet someone who would have such importance in my life. You've changed me without you even knowing it. Thank you.

I know how I feel and yet I can't find the words to make this entry more senseful.

I guess this is how it really should be.

All I know is I wake up happy to live another day; another chance to spend more time with you.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Acads Fail

I'm doing so poorly in school. Over the weekend, I tried to catch up and read all what I'm supposed to. I'm about to give up. haha

Pos101 by Ms.Oreta (1030-1130)
Ms. Oreta is motherly and really nice but, I really hate one of her policies: paper-less sem. By paper, I mean, she won't give us a hardcopy of all of the readings. She would send it to us a day or two before the session. Ugh. I hate reading stuff using a comp. I usually end up not reading them. Last Wednesday, we had a quiz and I wasn't able to answer because I wasn't able to read the reading for the session. HAHA

It's all good. I think I'll like this class especially how she would spend 10mins just to check attendance. And, i think, she has a major crush on Randy David. Odd.

Hi166 by Ms. Lacson (1130-1230)
Her wit feels soooooooooo contrived. I dunno if she just trying to be funny or she really is. Gives freaking difficult quizzes. And her readings are disorganized. Farty.

Though, I have a feeling I'll like this class soon. haha

Th151 by Mr. Mendoza (10.30-1200)
BORING as hell. Shit. OMG. Give me a life. And the readings are crazy long.

Ec185.something a.k.a IPE by Beja (1200-1330)
Very interesting class. I like it. Though, I have to read a lot of stuff every session because we have quizzes every session worth 50% of our final grade. But, i feel such a good Econ major thanks to this class. HAHA

Ec185.something aka Capitalist Development by Beja (again) (1330-1500)
SHIT. This class will drive me nuts. I totally don't understand the concepts. It's a Marxist class trying to explain Capitalist Development. OMG. Major headache every session. He said it himself that "we should not worry if we don't understand the concepts." But, Sir, are you crazy? You give us quizzes every session and they make up our entire grade!

Worse, I'm so pressured to ace all the quizzes to get a good grade. I failed the 1st one. FART.

Ph103 by Fr. Rasiah (1500-1630)

Fr. Rasiah is a very witty Indian priest. He explains well, though, can sometimes be rude (in a very funny way). Not too much readings but I am too sabaw already when I arrive in class. This was the first class the I cut this sem because my brain couldn't take it anymore. HAHA

That's my academic life the past two weeks. When I'm not in class, you'll probably find me in the AEA room or in a meeting (which I hate!).

This sem can be easy. I just have to read a lot. DL semester? Can be but really not likely. I hate reading! HAHAHA

Friday, June 26, 2009

Falling In; Falling Out

Of Falling In

The past 2 weeks have been such a blast for me. I've truly enjoyed my time. It's so nice to see people grow in relationships with other people. I feel like I've gained sooooooooooo many new friends and re-established and strengthen old ones. It's so much fun. I don't want this to sound like a repeat of my last blog but the sentiments from that one still echoes 'til now.

There's another falling in that's happening but I'd rather not discuss that. HAHA

Of Falling Out

But, at the same time, I feel like I'm slowly loosing some of my friends. Certainly, this is not a conscious effort. I've been trying my best to give "quality" time to every single friend of mine who's in my immediate circle. Imagine, 10-15 people in one room all at the same time; different topics, different stages of friendship, different jokes, different people. And, oddly enough, I feel compelled to listen to every single one, as much as I can. Actually, I feel responsible to pull all of those 15 people to have a single flow of thought. That sounds weird. I can't explain myself well.

And, in the midst of all of the "chaos" of trying to pull people together, of course, there are people that I fail to notice. I try my fucking best to listen and notice everyone. Promise. I do. But, honestly, how can one expect me to listen to different people talking at the same time? I only have two ears and one brain that tends to lag. haha

Imagine doing that every hour with different sets of people.

Is this another case of me spreading myself to thinly? I'd like think no.

Forgive me if you're one of those that I have "failed" to notice. Never my intention.

And, don't go on assuming that this is about you, please. You are not alone. HAHA In general, I feel like there are people who were (kinda) close to me before that I don't get to hang-out with anymore. It's as if we've lost the connection; the magic.

Side story: my acads is suffering from all the falling. HAHAHA Oh well.

Monday, June 15, 2009

I Will Miss This

If today is a prelude to what my last academic year in LS would bring,WOW. I'm so excited. Today was a blast. It was a simple day full of laughs- the kind that would lead you to tears. HAHA My heart is absolutely filled with joy, excitement, and happiness. It was such a close-to-perfect day.

I've been excited about today since yesterday. I spontaneously emailed all the Freshies to hang out in the room and just be with the old members. The old members were excited for their own private reasons.

By 9am, I was already in school. I went straight to the AEA room. There was already a Freshies! The uber friendly (but not krung-krung) Freshie was with an old member already. He's the one who's really "close" to me already. And a few minutes later, more and more people came. People from different batches! Freshies, Sophomores, Juniors, and Seniors. Everyone was there! Happyness.

By 10.30am, i had class. 11.30am, class but was a freecut. Came straight to the org room again. Sophies and Seniors dominated the room. Fuuuuuuuuuuun as hell. All the hirits and asarans was suuuuuuuuper funny. HAHAHA I never imagined the Sophies bullying my batchmates. WAHAHAHA Oh, I just missed another batch of Freshies who were too scared to stay in the room because I wasn't there. Booooooo.

By 1.30pm, more Freshies! It was fun getting to know them and to see everyone getting along. Wow. I'm really so happy. Yipeeee! (Why am I so perky? HAHA) One Freshie even ditched his blockmates to stay in the room. HAHA

By 2.30pm, the Freshies had class so I ate lunch with the Sophies. We talked about the Freshies and how one of them was hitting on a Freshman. Tsk tsk tsk. Jooooooke. HAHA

Back to the org room by 3pm. No more Freshies this time. It was Block Love time. I freaking love my block. Funny and crazy. More Freshies came by 4pm but they were kinda shy so it was a bit awkward.

BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT, this is not just the reason why I am so elated. Huh. I feel so freaking happy. Yay. I didn't expect that to happen. I miss you. I miss talking to you. I will miss this when I've graduated already.

You keep my life so happy.

Noooooooooo! I hate the fact that I'm already Senior Syndroming. HAHA