Lovin' Dev Eco

WIN. For real.

I'm starting to love Dev Eco. I hope it lasts.

You know me, when I love a class, i really try to excel in it.

Just please stop telling us that we're not from a good course like ME. It hurts.

Still, i hope this "love" lasts.

I Wish I Were A Freshman

When I was a Freshman, i thought it was difficult. Ma20 was a pain. And it was worth 6 units. I was absolutely tired with writing the En12 research paper. Reading Fil11 stuff was crazy. Danton Remoto was crazy, in a funny way.

But, no one really told me that this (Junior yr) would be this damn difficult. Freshman year and Sophomore year is like chicken shit compared to this. Argh.

At least, with Calculus and Accounting, you can simply use logic and a bit of luck and you're good to go. But with Econometrics, it's like I see stars when i see those whatchamacallits. Stressful prof

I'd gladly take Calculus and Accounting again (over and over again) rather than what I'm taking now. I envy those Freshmen who think they're life's so difficult.

Dearies, wait 'til Junior year.

On Freedom

After having "lunch" with some of my blockmates along Katip, i went back to Ateneo to read my philo readings. I didn't understand it.

The reading was about Freedom. I believe Skinner more than Sartre.

We are all bound by our histrocity.

We are controlled by our past behavior and external factors (environmental, psychological, and educational which shaped our present character and personalities.)

We are never free.

Lost Friend

After I was done with my Dev't Economics class, I went to Matteo to read my Philo readings. I got a message from a someone whom I've had a fight with for a about a month now. She said she wanted to talk with me because it's been hard for her not talking with me.

I replied: "I'm to the point that I'm not angry, but I just don't really care anymore. I don't know why we need to talk and if it will settle anything. I dunno. Give me a few minutes to think if I wanna talk."

I never replied again.
I know, it's a bit dramatic of me.
I've just been so down lately that I am too tired to think of things to tell her. I don't even remember the numerous reasons why I got mad at her. Maybe, it's time we talk.

Interestingly, a few hours after she texted me, I said "hi" to her, unknowingly. My blockmates and I were outside the library planning our lunch for my 7 and 1/2 hour break. My blockmate suddenly says "Oh my god. Guess who's coming." I panicked. I said "hi" to her. Then, i frowned. Damn you, blockmate!

Scheduling Failure

I got DS101 under the Leland De la Cruz, DS Chairperson, as my Free elective thinking that it will be credited for my Dev't Man. Minor. When I got into his class yesterday, i was really impressed by him. Though, the class is really heavy. He knew his DS Majors well. He recognized who were in their Soph. and Junior year. He recognized the non-DS majors too. And he really loves his students.

Unfortunately, DS101 will not be credited for my Minor. FAIL. He gave me the option to stay or choose another DS class that will be credited. I chose to move.

I just came from the Dev't Department to move to another class. I was moved to a 6-9pm class every Wednesday. That's another 4 and 1/2 hours break time for me. Wow. Why are all of our schedules so effed-up?

Fail.

School's So Stagnant

School's so stagnant and boring. As in. I don't know what to do my breaks yet because everyone's schedule has not yet been "finalized."

Errrr. I can't wait for school stress. Though, I hope it won't be too heavy.

Today is The Start of Change

If today was a foreboding of what's to come, then, certainly, a lot will change or has changed this semester. A lot happened today and I'm happy I'm back in school.

I had a huge chat with a friend; yes, you. But I won't divulge the details. I know you won't like it. Yes, i understand you but we really can't do anything about it. I think I'll spend a whole lot of time with you this sem (except TTH coz we won't really see each other). I'm looking forward to it.

Anyhoo, Econometrics= Ma11 + Ma20 + Ec102 + Ec111 + Ec112 + Ec115 + Ec116. Seriously, make or break. Break, break, break. Joke. Someone told me that when I don't believe I can't do something, it really affects my performance so... I encircled that A in the syllabus as my target grade. Whattajoke. I loved our prof, for now. If I fail this class (though, we believe, no one ever fails a higher Eco class because failing one will lead to a delay of a year which the department can't afford), maybe I should really find what I'm passionate about. Dancing and singing, right, ma'am?

Btw, people are extra jolly/ perky/ energetic today. Okay. I'm not really a fan of everyone being so energetic. Chill. I hope it dies down soon. It will, hopefully. And those that I expected to be jolly, were cold and aloof. I hope things normalize soon.

Tomorrow will be heavy. 7:30am class. Then, 4 and 1/2 hours break. Then, 4 and 1/2 hours of class. I didn't realize that my sched looked like that until last Saturday.