Busy Meee

I've been really busy this week. It started over the weekend with all the meetings and GA's that I had to attend. I am kind of getting tired already. HAHA

This week is AEA's Proj Head Hunt and I've been in school the whole week to supervise everything. And my parents' are not happy about it. They think i am just wasting my time in school. Yes, but at least, I am happy (and productive) in school.

I'm excited for this week to be over. I wanna rest.

And amidst all the activities that I have to attend to, deep inside, I know that I am still fragile. Fragile but trying to be strong for me (and you.)

For Thy Thesis Partner

MUST never reach her. Kk?

I feel so blessed to have you around me. I know all the stress that you're undergoing now ("school"-related and otherwise). I perfectly understand if you would want to snap at me or something. But no, you respond to me with such an "awwwwwwww" and heart-warming message. I thought you would get pissed with all of my demands. But no, you understand me. I thought you would get tired of me and all of my "outbursts." But no, you are even fearing that you are maybe not doing good enough. I tell you, you are doing so well. You are doing so much better than everyone else. Better than me, in all honestly.

I never thought that you would exert soooooo much effort to keep things in order. I never thought that you could be that friendly. I never thought that you are soooooooo generous and kind. As you know, i always think of you as a stress-magnet. haha. BUT NO, you make my life so much better and definitely more fun.

Good luck with your endeavors. I know all the things that you want. I hope you get them. FAT CHANCE. Hahahaha. Kidding! Let's keep on hoping. I'll support and help you all the way.

For whatever the future may hold, do not fear. I'll be here to help you. We'll all be here for you.

You truly are special. And I am truly blessed to have you around me. Can't wait for thesis. Can't wait for after-college. This friendship is for keeps.

Shopping Fail

Today's a "busy" day. I went to school for 3 meeting (all in the afternoon.)

My first meeting was with my EVP. This is becoming our weekly habit to "evaluate" the performance of our EB and to "pinpoint" people we have to work more with. Honestly, I enjoy have meetings with her. And our meetings are always fun and productive. We got to talk a lot today. We didn't finish our "meeting" because we both had another meeting to attend to.

Next up, meeting with my EB. It was blah. I was prepared. haha. Thank God they were prepared. I love my EB. We ended around 15mins behind sched. I had another meeting that starts 30 minutes before my previous meeting ends.

Anyhoo, I was terribly late for my last meeting of the day. I tried to make up for it with my "brillant" ideas. Unfortunately, I didn't have any. HAHA This meeting ended 1 and 1/2 hours behind my expected time.

I was supposed to go shopping today! Unfortunately, I didn't have the time anymore. And I am pretty sure that I don't have the time tomorrow. BUT, i need to shop. I just dunno when I can shop. God, give me the time (and patience) to shop. I hate shopping.

Brain Drift

I was on a texting rampage/blast today to promote the Project Hunt of AEA. I texted almost every AEA member on my phonebook.

I got a reply: "Haha. I'll apply! Whooot Whoot. Miss na kita."

"Yay! Miss na rin kita. GRABE.", I replied.

I just replied without thinking who I was talking to. When I realized that it didn't register to me who I was texting, I stopped. Unfortunately, it was sent already. Nakakahiya. Not that I don't miss the person but my reply sounded fake because we're not close. haha

Brain, please stop drifting away and thinking.

Now You Tell Me

Current LSS and my song for me. HAHAHA

Is there anything that can make you happy?
I don't know what to say to make it better
Seeing you like this, down and hurt so badly
When you have been so kept together

What's this?
All this time I thought you didn't need me
Now I've gone from you and now you tell me

You were nonchalant, strong, and unaffected
And you never wanted me to be there
I never saw your heart, that's how close you kept it
So right now I'm so unsure how to care

No attention was given
No affection from you to heal the hurt
I was hoping
I was wishing
Just to listen and to hear those words

You're in love, but that's not what it was
All those times that passed by with no signs
And now you're telling me
You miss me, why couldn't I see?
And my heart don't agree with what you're telling me

It's A Small World After All

Something big and explosive is happening to my block. hahaha. Well, what's new with big and explosive things in my block?? I can't stop from laughing just thinking about it.

Most know the issue(s) but, I am the only one who figured it ALL out. HAHA

Amazing. I hold the key and I will never share it with anyone. I have promised people that I won't. Well, at least, I am enjoying it. haha

The title's my first and last clue. Sorry blockmates. I bet you won't get it. hahaha

Indulge Yourself

"Indulge yourself. Masasawa ka rin.", a friend told me. I've been bothered recently by what I thought has died already or what I've been trying to deny myself.

Honestly, I've been indulging myself for 2 to 3 months already. And I am nowhere near the point of pagkasawa. Nowhere near that point. I am, actually, craving for more. I expect more. I want more. I need more.

In the few days/ weeks that I have distanced myself, I've been able to drive myself to my lowest in 3 months. I just couldn't and can't take it anymore. I'm driving myself crazy again.

As much as everyone thought I wanted it to happen, I, honestly, didn't want it to happen because I knew that after that will be this. Maybe I expected more. Maybe everything failed my expectations. Maybe I just want to be treated better. Maybe. Maybe, for once, I wanted to not be the only one indulging myself. But no.

And no one's here to share my misery.

AEA High; Me Low

AEA High
I just came from the AEA Plansem in Batangas. It was soooooooo tiring. That's really the first thing that comes to my oh-so-tired mind. haha. Honestly, it was really tiring because we had a lot of work to do. I kinda wanted a more fun Plansem though. Don't get me wrong, it was fun too. I think my EB really enjoyed it. I just wanted more fun (for me). haha

And most (if not all) of my EB got to bond. It was a good Plansem. We accomplished a lot and also had a lot of fun. Good job, Execom!

Me Low
There's something I wanna forget. I wanna move on, but I just can't. I need to reallign my brain again. I am overflowing with emotions. I didn't want it to happen. It just did.

*Forgive my vague thoughts.

It's Macci Now

For the past few weeks I've been irritating my blockmates by calling Matteo as Macci. And it's starting to get into me. I have been calling it Macci unconciously.

Let's face it. It's Macci now. Not Matteo Ricci. hahaaha


Joke. I still prefer Matteo. I just wanted to scare my blockmates. haha

Org Life

Today was a very good day for org life. haha

For the past few days I've been really stressed thanks to AEA. The frustration was incredible. haha A lot of problems and frustrations appeared last week and it was too much to handle. I am just not in the mode to fix problems.

Furthermore, the pressure is mounting. I began the presidency with feeling absolutely no pressure felt. I knew I can do a good job. But when things started to fall apart, I felt as though my "leadership" skills have gone rusty.

Anyhoo, today, everything was resolved. And I am so relieved and happy. haha

AEA Mode

Argh. Vacation mode is kinda over. I have a LOT to do for AEA now. Weeeeeeee.


Here's what I need to do:

Review the ff.:
AEA Consti
AEA CIP
AEA CFP
Project Proposals

Craft the ff:
Electoral Code
Plansem Details

Wow. I actually expected more. It doesn't look much. Yay! I might be missing something.
Back to work. haha

I'm Such a Good Catholic

I was all alone this weekend sorta. I didn't know my brother was here or, I think, he arrived Sunday from a beach trip. I dunno. We don't talk. I did nothing but download, watch, and play stuff online. I had no form of interaction with any human being coz: (a) we're helper-less now and (b) i was invi in ym. haha

Anyhoo, today, my family arrived from different places. My dad from Pampanga because he attended a wake and a burial. And the rest, from Bohol for a vacation. My mom asked me to bring to my room a cross made out of coconut leaves she brought from there. She said she had it blessed. I told her, "Ayaw ko nga. Multuhin pa ako. haha."

I went back to my room and surf-ed the net again. I read a blog of a friend who's in Singapore talking about palm leaves and how rare those are there. Then, I realized it was Palm Sunday yesterday. Dammit. No one reminded me. haha

Sorry Jesus. I'll remember next time.

Bum Life

I have nothing to do! Super. haha

My parents and most of my siblings are gone for the weekend so I am sorta alone and has nothing to do. Today, i am having my Simpsons marathon. haha To add to that, all I've been eating are junk food. Weeee.

My neck is kinda hurting from too much Simspons. Bummer.

Grades

My QPI for the 2nd sem is 3. It's lower than I expected but I am fine with it. Damn DS class for giving me a B instead of an A. haha. We all expected an A.

Grades:
Philo B+
Social Marketing B
Econometrics C+
Dev't Eco B
IPE B.

I don't deserve my grade in IPE and Metrics. The professors were just really nice, i guess. I deserve a higher grade for Social Marketing and Dev't Eco. My Dev't Eco prof is crazy. My blockmates who took the final exam (I didn't) increased their grades by 2 or 3 letter marks. Super daya.