When you think you're doing so well(not necessarily good; but okay), it's so easy to be caught up with your okayness and be complacent about things and life.
Then, suddenly, something just has to remind you that you're not okay and not doing okay, it forces you to back to old habit; habits that you've tried to learn to forget.
It just sucks that I have to be reminded that I am not okay. It sucks that no matter how hard I try to forget, i get constant reminders. It sucks that I thought I've learned to forget but you just had to remind me why I can't forget and you just had to make me feel envious. I am envious that you are okay. I am stupid for being envious. Blah blah blah.
I am human. I get disheartened easily.